7 year anniversary...

Today marked our 7 year anniversary. It started with my love going to his weekend work release with the hope he may get all days time served and return to bed with me and spend the day lounging. But as we all know fate tends to have different plans and he had to stay and work the day. But it was ok. I spent the day in the bed, for the most part. Hope made us a beautiful card. She is such a great child. this week she was chosen by her teacher for a great citizen award. I really am blessed for the family i have. I love them dearly. I know at times i am a difficult person to deal with but they still love me.For that i will e eternally thankful. Josh got home at about 6 with the news that his two siblings robbed a person that we all know for money and other things. what idiots. they are truly morons. i just really feel it is best we stay away from the whole ordeal. But brenda as usual feels steven is innocent and it was all adams doing. i bed to differ. i know steven well and i believe he is most likely guilty as sinned. but in his mommas eyes he can do no wrong. but honestly that is probably just a mothers love. back to hope at times i am hard on her because i feel she can do more than she does. not always here at home but at school too. i feel at home she has a set responsibility. make her bed. keep her room a certain way. and help with the dogs and around the home. for the most part she is truly magnificint at all those things. but others she lacks. she seems to be beginning the change. as all women know that is a trying time in all young girls life. i just hope she has the same love for me then as she does now. she is so special to me and i dont think i could bare her hating me. i know im not perfect and i have made mistakes in parenting and the ways i do things at times but i truly love her. i also love her father with unconditional love. he means the world to me. i never ever want to have to live without him again. he is my heart ad soul. i am so proud we have made it 8 years together. at times in the past i wondered if it was all worth it. was it worth the time we have spent arguing, fighting, hating each other. and the answer is yes. yes it is always worth the painful days just to have the wonderful times we do have. the love we share together could get us through anything. i love him so much. i could not imagine how my life would have turned out if i had not met him. he is so much of me that without him i would be no one. thank you god for giving me, blessing me, with such a great family. i am so blessed to have my family. my husband, daughter, brother, morgan, mommy, tim, mama, aunt penny, aunt gerenda, aunt gaynel, julie, granny jimmie, my beautiful niece and nephew. they are the world to me. and yes i am also thankful for brenda and terry. and thankful to have known steven because he introduced me to my husband. I am thankful for the family who have passed on, papa rob, papa bill, wayne, aunt bonny, uncle roger, uncle buddy, uncle johnny, archie, friends i have lost. the friends i have now. shaina, chad, nat, michelle, Jenn, kristen, kristin, my wonderful pets. who are a blessing to me although sometimes drive me batty. lol. THank you for everything. I know im not sure where this path is leading me. but i sure do feel blessed to have the things i have. i am trying day to day to improve mylife. to make it longer and stronger. i am trying to influence my family to the best of my ability to make them stronger better people. at the same time doing the same thing to myself.. well enough for tonight. i will update as life progress' another day.